Prednisone-Induced Hatred of My Body


Two weeks before I was hospitalized and began the fight of my life.

I admit I hate my body. I hate that it fights with itself, I hate that is destroys platelets and my joints. I hate the way I look after almost eight months of heavy steroids. I can’t fit into my clothing, I feel disgusting and I’m ashamed of what has happened because of those evil white pills. I lost every sense of my ‘healthy’ self, and the process of getting back to where I use to be is extremely slow. Continue reading

Treatment and Weight Gain: The Saga


I officially gained a whopping 25lbs after all my treatments from May through December. For many people, this may seem minor, for others it is shocking. I am surprised at how my body reacted to repeated increases in prednisone. The weight was not evenly distributed. It ended up sitting around my stomach, love handles, butt and thighs. For a size comparison, I went into the hospital a 4. I am now stretching a size 10! Weight issues seem to go on the back burner for rare and autoimmune disease patients, but I want to bring attention to it. Continue reading